FYI: If I'm found dead on my living room floor it was Jillian!!!!!

OMG I shredded. I shouldn't put it in past tense as I've literally only done if for 1 day LOL but I did it, I thought I was gonna die but I'm more worried about looking good in the swimsuit I've already bought (as extra incentive) I'm wearing that thing no matter what size I am so I might as well be proud of the body it's gonna show of LOL. Plus might be able to get Bub to the pool if I go looking like that HAHA.
So then Ladybug was being entirely too crabby and the sun was starting to go down so I put her on and we walked all over town (granted we live in a TINY town) but I did it... in ballet flats at that HAHA

My goal is to get down to a Size 8 which is possible only 2 sizes before December when I'm planning on trying for #2 and then I will do it all over again HAHAHA But that's just a goal and I'm not really gonna be too heartbroken if I don't succeed. As long as I'm eating 'better' and drinking water and being a good example for my children I really don't care about my size... but you might if you see me in my bikini LOL so attached is a picture for everyone to see that I took in my bikini... Those of you with sensitive stomachs are probably better off not looking LOL

So...Not too bad for 17 weeks postpartum right? I said... RIGHT?!?!?! Just kidding I know it's nothing beautiful but I'm trying and that is what matters!!!

Thankful on Thursday

Hmm I'm kinda havin' a rough day so this week might be a little bitta trouble... that's why it's so good to do once a week Right?

I'm truly thankful for Bub!! He would do ANYTHING for Ladybug and I!!
I'm thankful he'll do whatever it takes for US to meet OUR goal of keeping Ladybug outta public schools. But more than anything else I'm thankful that he WANTS to be at home and he calls the shots at his job enough that he gets to leave at noon tomorrow.
I'm thankful for Clearance racks where I found a swimsuit today.
I'm thankful for children's books at Half Price.
I'm thankful for Jenny McCarthy putting a positive spin on the past year of my life (Am reading Belly Laughs and Baby Laughs is next)

I'm thankful for BEAUTIFUL spring days where I can take my 16 weeker for a walk and she doesn't want a jacket on. (To Anyone who might see us on one of our walks I'm really not a bad Mom!!! I try to put a jacket on her but she overheats SO easy that she can't stand it... So yeah I'm wearing a jacket because I'm chilly but my baby isn't wearing one because she's got a 'normal' body temp of 99.1 while mine is a measly 96.8... easy as that!! LOL!!!)

So what is everyone out there thankful for?? I keep seeing hits on my profile but nobody's writing me so hope ya'll enjoy and feel free to write!!

One Year

So much has happened over the past year!!!! One year ago this weekend I was due with our Angel Baby that I had miscarried in August '08 (was due 4/11/09). But then: One year ago today I sat in my grandparents' bathroom in Tucson, AZ waiting for the pink lines on a pregnancy test to appear. I wasn't even completely sure that I should have "wasted" the test as expensive as they were but I did and then became ever so happy that I had!!! I called Bub and he didn't answer so I sat waiting for him to call me back (he was out driving OTR and was in fact visiting with my Papa at the time) he finally called me back and I told him I had used one of our stash of tests. He hesitated unsure of how to go about telling me that it would happen eventually and not to worry, when I blurted out that he needed to come home so we could go to the doctor to see how far along we were! LOL I had been tracking my periods for a while by that point but the March one had just seemed off and my April one was still a week away so I assumed my LMP was Feb 12 2009 which would put us at having a Thanksgiving baby. So a week later we went to the pregnancy crisis center and had to take a test. At the time Ladybug was giving my internal organs a run for their money LOL literally I had diarhea so bad that if I peed I pooped too LOL TMI add to that, I was so nervous that the HPT to be a false positive that I was having sooo many problems peeing in that little cup. So finally I did and the lady said we had 4 minutes for it to show up positive well it did in 45 seconds LOL so I really assumed I was 7 weeks along. Then my dad had a scare that we thought was a heart attack and he didn't know yet but Mom did. So the next morning I called and told him (side note I told him I was telling him then since was already in hospital so if he really did have a heart attack they'd be there asap LOL) On 4/24/09 we went and had a ultrasound and told me I was exactly 6 weeks!! Ooops so much for not telling anybody til later on haha. So we had our Christmas baby after moving back acrossed the country (I couldn't have a baby and not have it around Grama and Grampa let alone Aunt's and Uncle!!!) So in the past year I've driven acrossed the country, transferred Jobs, quit 2 jobs, had an ADORABLE baby girl and learned what it means to be a Momma!!

Thankful on Thursday

I wanna first thank Blair for doing this and really getting me thinking each week what I'm thankful for.

So here goes:
I'm thankful for a family who honestly cares TOO much.
I'm thankful for a baby who loves me even if she says she doesn't.
I'm thankful for friends who trust me enough to know that a 3 year old, a 15 month old and a 3 month old doesn't scare me and in fact it that's another one.
I'm thankful for being able to baby-sit and know that this is the life God wanted me to have all along and that I really feel as though I'm looking into the future as I sit here knowing I should help my friend with her house since all said children are asleep (athankyouverymuch)
I'm thankful it's April Fool's Day no body pulled a prank on me.
I'm really mostly thankful for life and getting to live it to the fullest extent possible.

So that's my mushy gushy Thankful on Thursday post :)

I'm gettin' good at this SAH Momma idea!!!

Last night was rough... I mean R-O-U-G-H!!!! Ladybug has officially outgrown the bassinet and Bub is against completely co-sleeping which means that I, Renee, must let my baby sleep in a room where I am not.... I know :gasp: right no seriously it was a lot harder on me than I would have ever expected!! Probly on Ladybug too as she's used to sleeping with me RIGHT there within arms reach... Every time I'd lay her in her crib she'd wake up so I started trying to use her gloworm to keep her attention off of me but that would only work for the 30 seconds or whatever that the stupid thing works sooo my Momma and I took the Ladybug to Babies "R" Us to no avail they wouldn't order it in to ship to my house and I'm not driving over there if I can buy the same stinking thing at another store and have it tonite!! So long story short I ended up with the Soothe and Glow Seahorse (same idea as the gloworm with 5 minutes of music) the Little Buttons Sweet Scenes Soother (up to 20 minutes of music, glows, and has projector on to the ceiling, and an effing remote-which I have to be in the doorway to use but better than being RIGHT there LOL) and of course a baby monitor... I know what you're thinking "WHAT you didn't already have a baby monitor???" But ya gotta understand I never would have thought I needed it, I mean our house is LITERALLY 732 sq ft... not big enough but I couldn't sleep knowing that the possiblity was there that I wouldn't here my 15 week old baby crying out wanting some of her Momma's nummy milk and getting no answer. Either that or you were thinking "Wow, Lady you really need somethin' better to spend your money on..." which is true I have better things I coulda bought but this was WAY important and if it helps the Ladybug and I sleep it's worth every cent and if Bub says other wise well he knows where my tush is and I'm more than willing to allow his lips to meet it LOL

Anyways so bought all the goodies came home and set 'em all up and then CLEANED. I know, I know I say that all the time... No seriously Bub and my's room is CLEAN, the bathroom is CLEAN, Ladybug's bedroom is CLEAN, all that's left is living room (a few dirty dishes and such) and the kitchen so can both be done tomorrow or I won't have ANYTHING to do all day LOL I love it and I'm so much happier than I was when I was working!!! And I can do whatever whenever which helps me help all my loved ones when they need me which in turn makes me even happier it's like the opposite of a catch-22 what ever that would be LOL

Oh Ladybug's fussy GTG Later

Weekly photos to get ya'll caught up on Ladybugs Growth--AGAIN!!

Whoops just realized I'm a little behind LOL so here they are!!!

13 Weeks

14 Weeks

15 Weeks

I'm Trying!!!

So we got the new washer and I've been doing laundry all day (seeing's how easily it all stacks up when you can only do laundry in the cover of darkness) LOL (long story short: our drain for the washer was plugged up with NO way thru so I would put the washer drain line out the window and let it drain onto the ground but couldn't do it during the day;) haha) But last week I did the Carmen Electra Striptease once and I'm really going to try to do it at LEAST every other day this week!!! I'm also trying to get all my cleaning done today so I don't have to do it ALL week again.
One more thing I'm trying to do...figure out what I'm gonna do with Ladybug at night... it's official she's too big to be sleeping in the bassinet and Bub is against co-sleeping (I used to be too until I think about putting my 3 month old in another room where :gasp: she might not be able to let me know she's hungry) I know I just said that as though I'm messing around but I'm being completely serious. It scares the bejesus outta me!!! Bub says "she's not gonna wither away she's got plenty of meat on her bones" but didn't like that I reminded him that he likes to complain when he's hungy even though he's got more meat on his bones than Lexy or I will ever have!!! I just don't know how people can do it. I've even thought about disassembling her crib and setting it up in our room. Seriously I don't know what to do!!! Right now she sleeps in the bassinet until the sun comes up and then I let her sleep with me... I know I know that's horrible for her... but she likes it and I like being allowed to sleep past 6 in the morning! Please if you have any suggestions lemme know!!!