Songs

Oh my little Ladybug it's been entirely too long since Momma wrote to you! But you've grown into this terrorizing young toddler... or is it grown baby? Who knows? Either way you're still too little and not walking to be a toddler but you are much to big and independent to be called an infant or baby! You're starting to stand on your own for brief moments and I get the feeling that LONG before your first birthday you will be a toddler!! You are honestly the love of my life in a way I could never have anticipated! Before you were born the song that made me cry as I listened to the words was "All I Want For Christmas Is You" by Mariah Carey. It was so true! I know that Mariah was talking to a boyfriend of some sort but those words just stood out to me... they were exactly what I felt when I thought about the fact that if you were a week overdue you had just missed Christmas!
And now I (re)found a song that is song by Evan and Jaron aka Lifehouse called "Crazy for this Girl" and GEEZ again I know that our situation isn't exactly what they're talking about but Ladybug I also know that I'm feeling that crazy for you even if it is a different type of crazy all together! I imagine that you think to yourself "Momma, go away, I got this" and I KNOW you do and I stand back and fight the tears as I watch you figure it out but I just could sit and watch EVERTHING you do and see your gears going and know that you're too smart for your own good... or mine!!
You are now saying "Uh, Oh" and repeating "Ha, Ha, Ha" you know how to shake your head no and this has replaced shaking it yes at all! You officially started to clap and wave bye bye just yesterday. And if you don't feel anybody but me watching you'll blow kisses. But you do it unlike any baby I've ever known! They all do the hand motion and don't actually kiss, but you my little Ladybug, you make the kissy noise and say forget the hand!! It's completely adorable and utterly you!
You are down to one nap a day and I try to make it in the middle of the day or else you're tired at 7/730 and bedtime is between 9 & 10!! That way Momma can sleep in!! LOL I can't go to bed at 7/730 and I just don't wanna get up at 7/730 but I would if I had too!!
Ladybug you are my greatest accomplishment and I can't wait to continue to watch you grow and change into the great woman I can see in my dreams of you! Time has gone so fast and I just know that it's not going to slow down anytime soon!
We just found out you are going to be a cousin soon and I hope that all is well with Lil Baby "A"--We'll have to come up with a better nickname for him/her but for now that will work. And in the next couple of months you'll be a big sister as we are going to be trying to have a little brother/sister for you. I hope you two can be close and be the best of friends! I absolutely love the thought of you helping me teach the baby to talk and all that comes with it! But for now I'm just cherishing me teaching you!!!

The words to the Songs I was talking about!!
Mariah Carey
All I want for Christmas is you-chorus
I don't want a lot for Christmas 
There's just one thing I need 
I don't care about the presents 
Underneath the Christmas tree 
I don't need to hang my stocking 
There upon the fireplace 
Santa Claus won't make me happy 
With a toy on Christmas day 
I just want you for my own 
More than you could ever know 
Make my wish come true 
All I want for Christmas is you 
You baby 


Evan and Jaron
Crazy for this girl-Chorus
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

Bad Momma!!

Ok, I know I've said it before that we're pretty AP but today Bub informed me that he is sick of being unable to sleep in our bed because of Ladybug being in there (we have a king bed so plenty big but he can't get into a deep sleep because he's worried he'll roll over on her or something) So I had her take her nap in her crib (instead of the swing like normal) and I've put her to bed in her crib and I'm waiting for her to wake in a few like normal and I'll put her to bed in there again and then go to bed myself. When she wakes up to nurse again I'll bring her to bed with me pushing it further and further each day until she's spending the night in her own room (SCARY, I know) I was doing really well with only letting her stay with me until the sun came up until Bub was home all last week and he wanted to go to bed earlier than Ladybug and I normally do so I would fall asleep in our bed with her before she was asleep enough to move!! When I was pregnant and before this was one of my Never Shall I Ever... and then she got here!! I never would have expected to be so terrified of something so completely normal!!! But.........I am...... You can laugh......I do LOL
Alrighty Internet peeps I'm headed to bed
I'll let ya'll know how my re-training of Ladybug goes!! LOL

5 months

I wrote this on Saturday but haven't had the chance to post it so here it is :)

Dear Ladybug,


You're becoming such a big girl already, it kills me sometimes! You look at your Daddy and I with such awe and wonder and utter amazement that I can't believe you're only 5 months old!!!

You already know so much and are learning so much more!!! I would never have guessed you'd be so close to sitting up and wanting so bad to be standing!!! You have learned so much in the past weeks let alone month! You chatter consistently and constantly (something I know will NEVER stop now ;) LOL) you're rolling both from front to back and back to front but neither right after another... Once you've done 1 you get too pissed to do the other LOL :) so much of your Daddy it's not even funny.

You're getting more beautiful with each passing day and though we're together for every moment I often forget to stop and enjoy how much you've changed already in these past 5 months!

Ladybug please don't hate me for the "no's" that are coming now and will until you're grown. Please see that with each one Daddy and I are simply molding you into a lady. You may not come from much and might not be what everyone expects but you will at least know right from wrong and to me that's what a lady is. Somebody who knows right from wrong and is never too scared to speak about it without conviction!

Ladybug you are my biggest dream come true. No matter what happens or what you become it will all be worth anything and everything to be your Momma... And I thank God each day that he chose ME to be YOURS and YOU to be MINE!!!

Love always,

Momma

It's been far too long!!

Sorry it's been so long it's been a hectic couple a weeks!!! Haven't been able to work out so no McFatty Mondays until I'm feeling better. I haven't felt well for a couple of days now, not really sure why or what's going on but I know that I've been napping with Ladybug during the day instead of the usual cleaning/blogging during them :( I'm so exhausted but I'm starting to think it's this gloomy crap-tastic weather we've been having!!! So anyway we have started BLW with the Ladybug her first food was pizza crust LOL But since then she's had steamed green beans, steamed carrots, water (from straws and sippy-cups) and a little ice cream. She's also rolling over consistantly now!! She will go from front to back or back to front but will only roll over once not time after time so if she gets to her belly she just gets mad instead of rolling back over LOL she's definately got her Daddy's patience haha! Tomorrow we have her 5 month pictures when she'll wear her ladybug Gap shirt and a pair of jean shorts and have her bare tootsies showing LOL I'm even gonna paint her toes :-D

Thankful on Thursday

Ok, First of all y'all better be 'thankful' I'm even doing a blog post tonight LOL Just kiddin'! I was all cozied into bed tryin' to get some sleep before getting up 'early' (hey as a SAHM setting an alarm is a sin!!) When...SHIT I didn't blog...and it's Thursday!! Eh it can wait... no...I don't wanna be one of "those" bloggers, I already skipped last week. So what did I do? I started typing up my post on my BlackBerry... which proceeded to loose it... 'bout chucked my phone out the damned window LOL So I got my cozied ass up outta bed and came to do this!
I guess first things first I'm thankful I have a conscience that even when I really don't wanna do something and I know I should it'll harass me 'til I just give in and freakin' do it LOL
Secondly I'm thankful I have a daughter who is not only thriving or surviving she's becoming quite the little chunker!! She is now 15lbs 8oz which is the 90th percentile!!! But only 75th for height and 50th for head circumference (gee not gonna be short and round like her parents or anything is she LOL) P.S. I love our pediatrician and the A.R.N.P. we saw today... no problems with BLW or anything!!!
Lastly for the night I'm thankful that an old (see middle school/early high school) friend is giving me a second chance where I'm not right sure I deserve one with the way things went down... losing her was completely my fault but she's the one who facebooked me wanting to meet up and hang out... so to the Farmer's Market (while her hubby works and mine catches up on his beauty sleep) we will go with her son and my daughter in tow. I think I'm gonna wear Ladybug so that I'm not running over all the innocent bystanders with the stroller that I'm really not good at... especially while looking at stuff LOL

Bad Blogger!!! :)

That's me....bad blogger it's been a week and a half since my last post!!! I'm just gonna blame it on Bub since he was home destroying my house last week! LOL He came home friday and didn't leave again until last night...LATE last night! Now I'm not complaining by any means! I LOVE having my hubby home and being able to show him just how much the Ladybug is growing each day...But (you knew that was coming, right?) he has this habit of walking in the door and stripping down (yup right in front of the door) and then the next morning he rifles through everything in the dark to find what he wants and leaves. This all totally messes up my week!! I couldn't just clean one room a day like I normally do.. NO I had to clean up the tornado my husband had throughout the house... and then came the weekend! Normally our house is C.L.E.A.N. by this point and so I get weekend's "off" too (off cleaning anyways) but this week I shouldn't have taken those free days! Plus yesterday since he was leaving I had to go get groceries for both of us, and pack him and was going to take it to him. So I ran errands all day leaving my Monday-Clean the Living Room routine undone. Then came today... I know, I know LAZY but it was so pretty out I couldn't just stay cooped up so I took Ladybug to the park (I did clean the living room and bathroom so tomorrow I'll just add Kitchen to the Dining Room and I'll be caught up) but my house is still dirty and I'm trying to get ready to have a 10 year old and an 11 year old all summer (part of my errands yesterday and trying to get a plan down part of today) I'm just getting caught on how to do all this and have a clean house and I'm throwing a wrench in it! LOL
I'm going to practice homeschooling by helping my sister Tate, and my cousin... Let's call him East  ;) get ready for the 5th grade. So far I've found a website with some awesome math problems and suggestions and I've bought 2 copies of Double Fudge and Fudge-A-Mania by Judy Blume and also 2 copies of the BFG but have only found 1 of Matilda both by Roald Dahl. After we read and discuss Matilda we are going to watch the movie (which is old enough neither has seen it LOL) Any other Ideas?? We need to work on Math, reading comprehension, and handwriting. Oh and I just learned how to make it e-mail me if someone leaves a comment so I'll now be responding to comments : D 
Thanks to everyone who liked the way I look in a bikini that really helps my self-esteem...especially since 30 day shred isn't going so well anymore. I LOVED it but all the Jumping Jacks and other high impact exercises are really taking their toll on my knees and the push-ups are KILLING my carpal tunnel!!! I can't even do the push-ups anymore. But like I said I'll have the two kids besides Ladybug all summer and we all have season passes to the local theme park so I will literally be walking my but off LOL

I'm getting to bed before Ladybug wakes back up! Nitey Nite!!

A Day Late...But not a dollar short

Sorry I didn't do my McFatty Monday post yesterday!!! This week we're a bit off as Bub is home this week!!! So Today I decided to go ahead and try to do Level 2... big mistake!! I didn't get but a couple minutes in and the exercise they were doing (Walking push-up) KILLED my wrist I can tell it's my carpal tunnel but OUCh even typing this now is hurting!!! So guess I'm supposed to stay on level 1 a bit longer hope that once I'm supposed to do Level 2 I can!! I dunno how else to do this except maybe regular push-ups? Hmm sumthing for me to figure out :) I'm down about a half size and thanks for all the encouragement on me in my bikini!! I want to always be proud of the body God gave me even if I don't like the way it looks... How can Ladybug Love herself if her Momma can't do it? LOL So not much of a post today I'm trying to NAK and Ladybug is being difficult about it LOL